Chocolate, Xanex & GOD

I decided to title this post Chocolate, Xanex & God is because they are things that I have used the past few weeks. I've faced a lot of possible diagnosis' and had more appointments and copays in the last few weeks than I would care to have had in the next few years! But amidst all this I have heard God telling to rely on Him. For Strength and comfort and for the amazing people in my life who have held my hand through this.. whether by calling, texting or face booking.. They have all reached my heart and softened it at the exact moment It could have gone another way!

This week we traveled to Red Oak, IA where my parents- in- law live to just spend some time. Nathan's mother and I went to this women's night at her church. They fed us and gave away door prizes, which Mom won one because of her "secret fold"!!:-) then they had a lady speaking on finding Joy in the everyday moments of life. She read a book called one thousand moments - I think? And she decided to test out this joy theory in her family. So she hid 500 pennies all over her house and when the kids came home that day they didn't notice even ONE! She has five kids!!! So the next day she told them to go around the house and find as many pennies as they could. The trick was- you had to yell out "thank you God for-----. Every time they found one. She said it was amazing the joy it brought them and now they never look at pennies the same way! All that said I had been thinking about that and how true it is, we tend to focus on and give more attention to the negative.. I do anyways! Because that's what I am familiar with I guess. I was driving to my biopsy appointment yesterday Nd I was nervous!! No idea what to expect. One of my best friends always listens to KLove radio. I will be honest here and say I don't even have it programmed in my station favs.. But I thought maybe I should flip to it and see if they have anything encouraging to give me.. I had been praying on the way and this song came on by Josh Wilson- never heard of him! I was just shocked yet, not really by the message and how perfect it was for my moment and circumstances.

Fast forward-- I get examined by my General Surgeon and he decides that I can wait on the biopsy as he thinks its related to the tumor and probably won't find anything unusual. How awesome! Yes I was annoyed I had to pay 20 to be told what I already had been saying to my GP. But, I am going to look at the positive! No surgery so far!!

I am on one medicine for my "inter cranial pressure" that makes me very forgetful and absentminded about weird simple things.. I go in Thursday to see my Endocrinologist about treatment for my tumor. Next Tuesday I have a vision field test to check for vision loss, glaucoma or other tumors.. Hopefully it's all related to the one and I can just take some meds.. Best case! I guess prayers needed now that my dr is smart about how to treat me and that I take well to this treatment. I hear some of the meds can make you feel pretty awful! My copays are adding up and I haven't even gotten a dr. Bill yet or know how much this med is but, one of my MOPS friends made a suggestion about doing a fundraiser to help us with all these medical expenses. Not sure when or how but it would be amazing. So that's the news for now... Praying for God to provide for us financially as well as emotionally! Love ya all!!!