Pondering

Since I've been resting and healing I've had waayy too much time to think ..and shop online... but that's another post. And I've wondered what's the lesson here? I  believe there's always a lesson to be learned in tough times even if it isn't the main reason for the tough time, if that makes sense.

I focused on the people that did the wrong actions and didn't do the jobs the best way. I focused on the pain I was in and what I was missing and I was miserable in every way. It wasn't until I realized I was fighting with myself. I was telling myself it wasn't okay to not be ok. Over n over. See the problem? I wasn't accepting myself as being the way I was suppose to be at that moment. This moment since I'm still in it. I tried to be stubborn n go to mops cause I felt bad for my kids being victims of my current illness. But then I ended up in so much pain and embarrassment that I had to leave in tears n be driven home (Despite my protests).. I'm so blessed n thankful for the group of moms around me that accept me and love me in spite of myself. Until I catch up. They have been a true blessing checking on me bringing food. Helping transport kids.I don't know what I would do without them seriously. I genuinely hope to be able to return the favor to everyone who graciously helped me. I hope I'm back to normal soon too now that I think the lesson is learned ;)