Pondering

Since I've been resting and healing I've had waayy too much time to think ..and shop online... but that's another post. And I've wondered what's the lesson here? I  believe there's always a lesson to be learned in tough times even if it isn't the main reason for the tough time, if that makes sense.

I focused on the people that did the wrong actions and didn't do the jobs the best way. I focused on the pain I was in and what I was missing and I was miserable in every way. It wasn't until I realized I was fighting with myself. I was telling myself it wasn't okay to not be ok. Over n over. See the problem? I wasn't accepting myself as being the way I was suppose to be at that moment. This moment since I'm still in it. I tried to be stubborn n go to mops cause I felt bad for my kids being victims of my current illness. But then I ended up in so much pain and embarrassment that I had to leave in tears n be driven home (Despite my protests).. I'm so blessed n thankful for the group of moms around me that accept me and love me in spite of myself. Until I catch up. They have been a true blessing checking on me bringing food. Helping transport kids.I don't know what I would do without them seriously. I genuinely hope to be able to return the favor to everyone who graciously helped me. I hope I'm back to normal soon too now that I think the lesson is learned ;)

Results are in!

If you have been following this saga with my health I finally have some answers!  Hooray! I will try to keep this as simple as possible since it gets confusing.

I have two diagnosis'.. A. Prolactinoma which is essentially a benign tumor on my pituitary that secretes the hormone prolactin. I was diagnosed October 2012 with that.  My MRI scan from last week shows it has indeed SHRUNK! Not sure how much as I haven't gotten the report yet but since my old endocrinologist stated it wouldn't change in size I am happy for any change. I meet with my new endocrinologist through St Luke's in February to start treatment again.

My newest diagnosis B. Is Pseudo Tumor Cerebri also known as intercranial hypertension. It's when you display all the symptoms of having a brain tumor but no mass is found. I had a spinal tap last Wed and my pressure measured high, they drained it to normal and they started me on medicine already to keep it normal. One of the ways to combat is through weight loss which this medicine has a strong side effect of.

I could write a whole post on my experience with spinal punctures this week but its still fresh and hurts, literally.
I will say I hope to Never have one ever ever ever again.

Thanks for prayers n well wishes. :)